Good Day,everybody.. ^^

It's 12.18 pm

I'm on a project site, PT. Sandang Indo Pratama, Tangerang..waiting for the products. Borrriiiinggg..80% at 13.00pm for the black color, PO 9,861 pcs / 204 pcs sample. It means I can only start to inspect the garment around 15.00pm..phewww!
The other color, Navy, is expected to be ready 100% at 18.00 pm, PO 5,399 pcs / 111 pcs sample.

Well, I can assure you, I'd be at my room around 4.00 am tomorrow.

Really, waiting is an annoying activity! :p

Ahh, I love working so much!^^ It distracts me from thinking about a lot of unnecessary n negatif thoughts. I really hope I can be a Senior Inspector so I can go around the country, become a very busy n important person. So Dearest God, make this dream come true, if You can't grant my other dream..cos I need to be so damn busy,if that dream is just a dream for me. ^^

12.36pm
Fellas, most people use blog to share thoughts..I use it to make a conversation with my head,cos sometimes, we're so disconnected that I can't understand what I really want or do. This is my way to synchronize my body, mind, soul and heart. Sounds silly? Try putting yourself in me, see if you can handle it.
(If you can,please be kind and let me know how, I'm going insane here trying to control myself ...hihihi :D)

Hey, don't you think I'm talking trash here?I just read what I wrote from top to bottom, and I believe that the writer must be somekind of crazy schizophrenic maniac or very disoriented hwakakakakakz :)))

God, I miss him!

Wam,I love you so much...huuuuuu,I'm getting crazier than I thought!


Ciao for now, Angels!


f.a

BUSYYYYYYYYY!!! 非常に忙しい!!

Good day,Lucky Angels

It's 12.14 pm in the office..working my ass off, hihihiy.. :D
I notice that I've been very veeeerrry sleepy lately n I wonder why..it seems that I don't have my old ability to stay awake for two days..wweeeewww!!

Am I too tired? Does my body start to degrade? Does this has something to do with all those meditation I had? Either way, I hope it won't last long, I need my body back to normal. I can't do all my activities in a day if I have to sleep more than 3 hours. So, Dear God, please give my strength back.. ^^

13.58 pm
Headache again, at the left side..ssooo annoying,had to close my eyes just because there's too much pain..just like when you got yourself a brain concussion in an accident..nausea n dizzy!
Piere and Nobita keep sending me messages, it doesn't bothers me if I didn't know their intentions. It's too obvious, guys. Nobita's messages always shows caring and compassion, n sometimes jealousy upon my AVA; Piere messages always begin with sadness, apathy, and looking for my sympathy.

14.40 pm
Headache, gone! :)
Missing him so much..huhuhu
So in love with him, I wonder why..Dearest God, The Almighty, hear my pray..pleeaaasseee

愛私は本当にあなたと、私の最愛の王子様です。I am really in love with you, my beloved Prince. ^^

Good afternoon 16:49 pm!

A strange feeling struck me again, afraid of something I don't even know. Worried, confused n scarred..hmmm, got a pretty messy situation inside my head. Duhh!!

Anyway, I got a strong feeling that my AVA is in the middle of something, which bothers him so much.

God,please help me...

Love Love Love

Howdy,mates!
It's 09.40 am and I'm already slacking on my office chair..thinking of my dearest one..hell yeah!
I'm listening some chillin' a must heard songs..I name it,you download it..or, if U already got it, listen to it and think about your life a little. It might help you understand why certain things happens that and this way.

My playlist:

1. John Legend - Take It Slow
2. Daniel Powter - Bad Day
3. Coldplay - Viva La Vida
4. Lighthouse family - Lost In Space
5. Michael Buble - Home
6. Louis Armstrong - Wonderful World
7. The Fray - How to Save a Life
8. Alanis Morisette - Uninvited
9. AVA - Hallucinations
10. The Killers - White Demon Love Song
11. Boys Like Girls f. Taylor Swift - Two Is Better Than One
12. Michael Buble - Haven't Met You Yet
13. 311 - Love Song
14. Mary n Judy - Sobakasu
15. L'Arc en Ciel - Time Goes On
16. Oasis - Wonderwall
17. Chris Brown f. Keri Hilson - Superhuman
18. Yellowcard - Gifts and Curses
    

n so much more...I think I'll be listening to my ipod until it run out of battery life :p

Love is a strange n scary feeling, it haunts and hunts you down...and as you fall, there's only one way in and out, that is to cut a piece of your heart and leave it there as a token of grace.

But, I won't run..as before..even when I know I'll have to bleed again..Love is worth fighting for.

I'll be stronger each day, for U ^^


(나도 사랑한다, 얘야)
f.a

Never Been An Ordinary

Good Afternoon, Fellas! ^_^

Just wanna share some thoughts..Do you think there are times when you reeeeeaally want to be an ordinary?
Grow up in a normal family, having lots of normal friends in high school, a success in college, work in a common company, have husband/ wife and children?

I tried to be an ordinary, just a girl and a woman on the go..I failed :p

Never had the experience of a father since a year old, live in chaos for a whole life.

Family conflict of love, affair n money..didn't have a clue on how to jive.

Boring high schools, filled with books and silence on the white side..

Rage, curiosity and rapid anger on the dark side..

A jet coaster love with tragic end, wish it never has to happen again.

Lost faith and distracted..scaterred soul whose path is vain.

Working to survive alone, handle all things on her own

Wandering from east to west, with frantic smile just lie a frown

Became a superstar of the Show, a good friend of sorrow

But smile on her face never look that hollow

Morning all,
I'm back again..it's 9:02 am

a lil bit sleepy head here, need to be pushed by a nice coffee..and I did :D

So,I was sleeping since 11 pm yesterday..very exhausted,,might be the effect of the cat fight I had before. I awoke several times though,thanks to some friends who 'misunderstood' the night as morning.
Anyway,I actually woke up at 4 am..can't go back to sleep just because I really miss my 'hallucination' ..if you read my AVA - HALLUCINATIONS posting earlier..you'll know whom I am talking about.
I got a call from my closest friend too,a very mellow boy named Apier. The sad thing is I used to love this cute boy,before my heart sees Wam, the hallucination.

Aaah..my life's so complicated right now..this story of A Cat and the Dark Princess, i really hope to end in a happy ending..but I don't see how.

Wish I could be selfish, but I'm sure it'll hurt everybody.

Well done, I finish my sad session for this morning..meet you back again soon.

Love you all

(f.a)

Cat Fight! ^_^

Fiiuhhh!!! Scarry but interesting!
That's what I had in mind this morning when I had a cat fight. Even though it started with simple misunderstanding, it turned out to be pretty messy. My sheet was covered with red 'juice' and I was suffocated. There were times when I thought I was going to lose it. WOW!

But it is interesting, never had a match before. Caught off guard and didn't know what to do made me lost the fight. But hey, I survive the night hihihihiy
Moreover, I got the chance to meet my grandpa..hoho..miss him so much! Wish I could come to his place, but I guess it wasn't my time. So this is what it feels when you lost all your power and energy fighting a big cat. Untill now, my hands are sore and very much in pain.

But ,really..it was a great experience! I just have to be more careful next time.

It's not the end of my journey,fellas..maybe,it's just the beginning of my story ^^

Out for now,Ciao!

AVA - HALLUCINATIONS

Hai fellas,
It's a bright afternoon here 15:43 pm

I'm giving you this lyric from Angels dan Airwaves - HALLUCINATIONS, my recently favorite song. really represent the feeling I have nowadays, just because this girl is in love with a hallucination.. "atashi no Neko-Chan desu..AISHITEMASU!"

eNJOY! Be right back with lots of stories. An odyssey of a Fallen Angel ^_^

HALLUCINATIONS

And look real close, across the lines and the roads,
It is there to decode...
Where you thought was a ghost, are sparked to explode
It's the start of the show, it's the part you love most
When your heart will implode within

REFF I:
Do you believe in hallucinations?
Silly dreams or Imagination?
Don't go away 'cause I feel you this time
Don't go away 'cause I need you here this time

As a man floats home, carry us, back to shore,
And let the mountainous coast...
Where the sun starts to glow,
From our head to our toes, to the stars, that we know,
And with you as my host, it will keep us afloat, we can

REFF II:

Do you believe in hallucinations?
Silly dreams or Imagination?
Don't go away 'cause I feel you this time
Don't go away 'cause I need you here this time
Do you believe in hallucinations?

Any dream or it's revelation?
Don't go away 'cause I need you here this time,
Don't go away cause I'll leave you here all night

The signs, are taxing, I'm waiting, for something,
There's images of love and war
And everything's here to explore,
It's all unlike, the usual, A different place but beautiful,
And it is not quite as it seems,
I hear the children's laughs and screams,

Ohhhh, It's beautiful!Ohhhh, So beautiful!
Ohhhh, It's beautiful!Ohhhhh!

(back to REFF II)

I'm making you, all mine, I'm making you, all mine